Alexis Ren Has Something To Say!

Alexis Ren shared a series of new selfies to Instagram yesterday and took the opportunity to share some of her thoughts with her 17 million followers. The model and OG influencer took to writing a lengthy caption about beauty and how she's used her looks as an armor over the years.

"Beauty became my armor because it was the mask that I was most comfortable wearing. The problem with wearing a mask for too long, is that we can forget our own face."

The model continued her caption in the comments section of her post, going on to talk about her career, expectations she has for herself and shared more about what her intentions are going forward.

"Evolution is subjective and deeply personal. I am everything you hate and everything you love and I will continue to be more of me for the sake of taking ownership of my life"

If you want to know more about what's going on inside Alexis Ren's brain, read the entire thing below. If you're more interested in seeing her cleavage in a white bra, scroll through the gallery!

"I love playing dress up and make believe. As a young girl, I made outfits for each day of the week and lined them up on my bed. I watched my mom do her makeup, the counter covered with eyeshadow and lipstick. No matter how busy the day was as a mom with 4 kids, she always looked her best. I remember seeing her and understanding that beauty wasn’t meant to bury who we are but express more of who we are—that we can dress like who we wish to become. I’d have my friends play with their camera and we’d go on walks and take photos of each other. My childhood passion quickly became my adulthood career.

But as I got older, it wasn’t make believe anymore. Beauty became my armor because it was the mask that I was most comfortable wearing. The problem with wearing a mask for too long, is that we can forget our own face. I had to reach back in time and reconnect with that little girl who knew that dress up is not the same as covering up.

People tend to define growth as milestones that are visible to others. Yet, I have found in my own life that sometimes all that needed to change was my intention behind what I do, not that I should stop doing it. I didn’t need to stop taking photos or change my social media in order to heal. I needed to redefine my why, to decide what story I was telling. In doing so, I stopped trying to confine myself to these little square boxes.

I did so many things for the wrong reasons. Now I’m still doing them, but for the right ones. I accept this side of me because I no longer see a girl wearing a mask. I see 12-year-old Alexis, excited to play dress up.

I watch myself do this to others—our brains want to easily define people, because it is so much easier to see someone as one thing, instead of embrace that they have a little bit of everything in them. But my god, we all deserve the grace of change. The ability to redefine ourselves again and again. It’s a lifelong practice. A lot of the times, when I think I’m setting myself free from a box, it’s only because I’ve moved my attention to another one that I think is my answer. But it never is.

I’m beginning to realize that we may never have an answer, but we can learn to ask better and more honest questions. Creating a permanent description of yourself is spiritual jail. There is no character arch, and it makes for a flat story. All we can do is move towards what feels right. Having a clear intention is like having a compass in an uncertain world. I can try and grasp onto being an actor or a model or an entrepreneur, but why? Those things aren’t me. Yet, if my intention is clear, and those are the shapes that it takes, then there is room for my dreams to breathe, for me to breathe, because I’m no longer gripping so tightly to any one outcome.

Whenever I write (extremely) long captions, my intention is to share my lessons in hopes that you reclaim pieces of yourself that you’ve exiled. Which is another example of how powerful intention is. Evolution is subjective and deeply personal. I am everything you hate and everything you love and I will continue to be more of me for the sake of taking ownership of my life, because at the end of it no one is going to say, “thank you for holding back”

So, here it is: my intention is to be the most brutally honest, creative, and loving version of myself. And that will take on infinite shapes, some unnoticeable to the naked eye because sometimes growth is a steady, silent revolution.

you are allowed to be all of it yet defined by none of it."